Aloha! Pehea `oe?

Sayonara 2011 !

As i sit here in my room, home alone, on my bed, i start to look back and think about the past year and how it has been for me - it’s like a slideshow just started playing in my head. I sit here thinking how much my life changed this year. I’ve had my firsts & my lasts; my hello’s & goodbye’s. I’ve met way more than a dozen people & i’ve lost a few. I’ve made my mistakes & i’ve forgiven others. And most importantly I prayed & i was never alone. I know it sounds cliche but this year has been a heck of a roller coaster ride - worse than Tatsu & X2 combined… but you know what? as we approach the end of this one of a kind 2011 roller coaster, i am forever grateful for the peaks, the drops, the loops, the sudden stops, the adrenaline rushes, & everything else that comes with it. I am thankful for all the experiences, the emotions, and all the people that have been with me through my struggles & my happiness on this one crazy ride. 

I would like to apologize and say sorry to the people that I have hurt this past year. Looking back, i do believe that I was hurtful and unnecessary. I was not the friend ya’ll expected me to be. Even if i explain my actions, it still does not justify that i said or did some pretty hurtful things. I hope ya’ll can forgive me for whatever i may have done and put this matter behind us.

With that said, I am reminded through my faith that “My happiness is the Lord”. It is through him that I can be happy and it is through him that i can FORGIVE. I am releasing all the anger, the grudges, and all the negative emotions that i have within me. It is not healthy and it will not strengthen me in any other aspect in my life. I forgive ya’ll for everything.

I also want to say thank you. Thank you to the great FEW who have seen me at my best and sadly my worst - from parties to kickbacks to Disneyland trips to PCN practices to board issues to Vegas trips to school to issues i had with my family. Thank you for always being a listening ear and for being a shoulder to cry on. Thank you to those who offered your places when i was definitely too scared to go in my own home. & after surpassing that, thank you to all who have helped me recover when my parents decided to leave for the Philippines for good. Thank you to all that pushed me to do better in school and for inspiring me to do better. Thank you to everyone who has shared their love and warmth everyday (especially on holidays) to make me feel like i am family. AND thank you Lord for being right by my side through everything.

and lastly, I want to thank EVERYONE for helping me make who I am. Thank you for all the tears, the joy, the laughter, and the memories you have shared with me through this ride - may it be sitting right next to me or being at the other end of the ride, each and every single one of you are a blessing to me. I am definitely looking forward to 2012 and what this ride has to offer. I wish you all a blessed and prosperous New Year! 

MAHALO & ALOHA!

<3, charLene